communism

I recently decided to become a member of the Communist London Movement. I am somewhat dissatisfied I must say, not only are the meetings too long and too theoretical, but also, is the whole union mainly led by men.

Not that this bothers me too much, however, I think that I should start facing the fact that i will never be a man. This may sound unusual to a person that doesnt know me much, but recently I have been feeling more and more that I want to be a man.

What am I saying, I have felt like this for far too long to be quite honest. I am not feminine at all and everyday I find women more and more attractive....some would say, "how dreadful" but I will say "how excilirating".

Then again I find myself attempting to adopt the "male" role when engaging or going on a "hunt".

Then I again I possess the concioussness that gendered relationships can be overcome, or shall I say, understood on a higher level, that allows us to counteract unjust social practices.

GOD! Damn little squeaky little voice that inhabits my brain.

(note of the day: must kill little squeaker or at least intimidate him/her with my mighty strenght, hahaha)

Ok, entough rumbling on, what I should really do is joint the LGBT for once in a fucking while!

good night,

remember the revolution will not be televised!



isa x